Let d smile diffuse ur frown

Farewell..

2011-05-27T00:28:00.000-07:00

You are the best we have known,
Thank you for the concern you have shown.
You are the hero,
And life of the show.
Now when you leave,
We are left behind.
With all our smiles ,
But not to say Goodbye.
But the wish that you still rise high.
Sir,
Thank you for what you did.
The way you did.
And thank you just for being you.

......

2011-02-06T20:13:00.000-08:00

Kuchch muskurahaton ki aahat thi,
Dhoop mein khil jaati thi,
Kahin kho gayi hai
Shayad dhundhla gayi hai.

Yahi sab toh kuchch apni thi,
Kuchch ke saath bhi baati thi
Muskurahaton ki toh sirf aadat thi
Hasne mei sab kharch ho jaati thi
Kisis ne shayd chura li hain,
Ya fir kahin kho gayi hai
Baadlon ke peechhe shayd
Dhundh mei chhupi hogi
Us badal ka rasta yaad dila do
Us kone ka pata bata do
Dundhli muskurahaton ko waapis laado...

VOID.

2010-11-30T03:10:00.000-08:00

I gaze aloud
At the barren land and spotless sky.
All in all nothing to be seen,
Nothing to be heard,
Nothing to be felt.
Its the loneliness which screams into my ear,
Its the void which fills up my empty space
Its the darkness which has held up the light of my life.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.... :)

2010-09-26T23:47:00.000-07:00

Some words are defined at the time of birth, some to be defined at every single moment of life and some loose their meaning with the stagnancy of life. Friends are one single word which doesn’t fit to any of these words but is special, very special to each one of us. Friends accept us for what we are, love our negativity, praised our positivity and loved us unconditionally. But there is still no single definition to describe this beautiful word.

In today’s time of being available 24X7 in the virtual world has taken a toll on the word called friends. Friends is a word very casually used and misused nowadays. Every other person we meet and exchange pleasantries come into the circle of being friends. Cut to chats, messages and cell phones we prove friends to each other at every nano second of this virtual world. Within seconds A and B are friends without even met or knowing each other. The alphanumeric characters show the variety of moods we go through. We sit side by side and find it comfortable to keep messaging each other rather then having a one to one conversation. Why so?? Maybe because it’s easy to express these ways or u don’t have the courage to say what u want to or you have some cloudy thoughts :).

We had been lucky enough to have had met many people whom we can call friends and unlucky enough to loose them in the journey called life. But each passing moment of life was governed by each single person. We let ourselves completely engrossed in ups and downs, feeling their pain and their joy. And then suddenly out of the dream. Time for a change. And this change didn’t even hurt for a second. Why so?? May be because we are not friends, may be because priorities changed with time. But then friends are not meant to change. They are for forever.

For me friends are the part of my extended family. Just like my parents and siblings, I can’t have a day without thinking about each other and vice versa. There are people whom I need but then friends only make your presence valued in their life. I love them. Love them for the fact that I can expect any damn thing from them. Reason for such a strong bond id that we have known each one of us for a long time. Reason is that we have never said to each one of us that we are best friends, close friends, good friends or just friends because we are friends. One relationship I was not born with but acquired with the passage of time, treasured it to the extent that never made any effort to let it go. Why so?? Because friends are meant to stay. They are there to tolerate your crap, enjoy your joys and question your silence. As I read it yesterday some come for a reason, some for a season and rest for a lifetime. Friends come for a reason and make every season of life colorful with their smile :).

Just smile

2010-07-26T03:48:00.000-07:00

Ohh you make me smile,
The days and the nights.
You make me sing and dance and gloom.
Because you are the one
In the dreams,
the mornings and the noons.
Yeah you make me smile.

The morning light is haze without you,
the chirping birds is scream without you.
All I need is you,
Ohh you are the one
Who makes me smile to sing and to gloom.

The morning light, and the shining night.
All I think is your smile
Because its you
Who takes my blues aside.
You make me laugh, love and dance in the night
Yes you are the one
Its just your smile in my eyes,
And my smile.
Everything else beside,
Its you, only you.
Just make me smile, just make me smile ;)

Moonlit Night

2010-03-29T02:15:00.000-07:00

Here i lay by your side,
Gazing throughout the sky.
The stars, the moon & your twinkling eyes.

A million questions across ur smile
And a number of answers in the glitters tonight.
Here I lay wondering by your side.

If this is a dream,
then let me reside
In ur smiles & lock You in my eyes,
This is the thing I wish tonight.
Gazing throughout the glitters of sky.

The beauty of moonlit night.
In ur arms.. across my smile ,
The beauty of moon tonight.

2009-11-25T19:54:00.000-08:00

FREE LIFE...

Dreams so High,
Days all alike.
I wonder, I just wonder
Why am I.

In the star studded night.
I see at the sky.
Thinking something
I dnt know why
I wonder
I wonder, why is sky so high.
I keep gazing all the night
Moon and the blue blue sky.
I wonder
I still wonder.

All mornings are alike
I am still in my sleep
Just keep on dreaming
Is this my life.

In my blues or my cruise
All the day on my shoes
Through my ups and down
At times so rude
All day just frown and brood.
But the then yellow yellow sea
And the sand at my feel
I couldn't stop but smile
I just wanna be free
From the days and the nights
Morning hiccups n evening blights
I love something calld life.

I wonder,
I still Wonder
Why am I.

GoSsIp !!!!!

2009-08-12T23:15:00.000-07:00

Gossip ke bina hai haal behaal,
Mano jaise duniya mein pad gaya ho akaal.
Isse ladai, usse panga
mano zindagi ka yehi hia dhandha.
Gossip ke bina frustration ki height hai,
useless and motiveless lagte day naight hain.

Har koi hota tah gossip ka sutradhra,
gossip, masala, news hota tha humare khane ka achaar.
Kya din the woh suhane
Jab gossip ke liye bante the bahane.
Woh din kahan se lau jiske rom-rom mein gossip samaye.
Woh log kahan se lau jo tan, man aur dhan se gossip sunayein.
Yeh orkut bhi lelo, yeh facebook bhi lelo,
chahe mujhse lelo mere cell ka inbox
magar mujhko lauta do woh chut - put baatein.
woh kisike bitching, woh kisiske chaatein.

Mera bharat mahaan,
Gossip ke bina ladkiyo ka dil pareshan.
har zapper ka yahi nara hai,
Har gossip per haq humara hai.
GOSSIP!!! GOSSIP!!! GOSSIP!!!

Daddy

2009-07-27T01:39:00.000-07:00

Daddy- i used to call my Grandpa by this name and Bubbo is what he used to call.I love this name n i love my daddy much more than that. Going back all my childhood memories are filled of him only. I cannt see my parents there. They were lost somewhere. Its said n I have heard that when I ws born he distributed money among poor, n ppl thought a boy is born - Typical Indian society. Going back i remember taht i eagerly used to wait for him to come from office - i used to walk on my knees then, so taht he can pamper me. He used to bring me so many goodies as if i ws the only child on this earth. Whwnevr I used to cry he used to dance to make me happy, n his dances were like - duck dance, tortoise dance, hen dance , elephant dance n all d creatures on dis planet. Just to see me smile. He knew only two stories- monkey n crocodile & hare n tortoise. But evryday he used to tell me in evry new fashion and i used to listen with same delight evryday. He used to bring me new sets of pencils everyday and used to loose them evryday. While growing me i used to get money from him to have the costliest ice cream everyday( n i used to watch kids having gola, something i was nevr allowed to have). He wanted me to grow up n become a doc bt i choose smthng else. I knw my daddy will always go with my happiness. Worst ws when i had to live with my parents - away from daddy. He was filled with tears. HE ws too fat man n my hands could hardly reach around his belly when i used to hug me. i ws too young to understand things bt i cud nt contrrol my tears. I hate those day. I just hate them. I ws lonely aftr that. Sitting alone, books open in front and always thinking about what daddy must be doing. Always waiting for my vacations to go back to daddy. That was my home. With parents i ws just engrossed in my books n they in their lives. I hate my self when before his last days i ws critical of his habits. habits like having too much pickle, nt brushing on time... trying to change things which were theer for years. God will never forgive me for this. And then he passed away. Everything gone aftr dat n starting of beleif that all my loved one will leave me like this. All of a sudden. I hated my life then. I had no freinds before that n wanted no freind after dat.My life revolved around him only. And my found my letters in tact in a locker where he used to keep his property papers. I just want daddy. Someone to love and pamper me unconditionally. Daddy to call me bubbo again. Daddy.

DARK DEATH...

2009-01-19T07:18:00.000-08:00

this is a life,
a life of destruction.
this is a path,
a path of self destruction.
no one knows the end,
no one knows the begining,
still am heading towards my destruction,
my self destruction.

all i see is black,
all i hear are screeches,
nothing more than darkness,
nothig less than nimbness
this is my destruction, my life of destruction.
am heading towards my end.
the en dof encroachmnet ,
of the body in my soul.
am heading towards my end,
towards my death.
but still i hope.
a am at peace with my death,
a rest in my bed.

DANCING LIGHTS...

2008-09-05T04:53:00.000-07:00

Those dancing lights,
Chasing the Glamour,
the glitter of life.
Those dancing lights

Screeching the darker,
the darkest of the nights,
am chasing behind.
Alone my sight,
my twinkling eyes,
those dancing lights..

Those dancing lights,
Chasing the Glamour,
the glitter of life.
Those dancing lights

Dreams....

2008-07-30T02:24:00.000-07:00

I am a dream,
I will come to you.
I am a dream,
I wont stay wid u.
I am a dream...

Catch me if u can,
Hold me with both your hands.
Delineated in your thoughts,
Realized in your eyes.
I am a dream
I am a dream...

2008-07-08T00:24:00.000-07:00

FLY HIGH

I have d wings,
I want to fly.
Dont hold me back,
I have to fly.
I might reach the horizons,
I might reach nowhere,
Or I might end up as a wanderer.
But then dont try to contrite me,
And encage my wings
Give back my wings because I have to fly.

I may mean a lot to lot around me.
But dont try to bind me in your daily days.
These religions, rituals are not my stay.
I have to reach where many not dare.
I know all this is not that facile
N I may wake up in the sand looking fervently at the sky,
But then let me give it a try.
Yes I have to reach that high
I will have to fly high.

Just adore my wings and bid me Goodbye. ;)

2008-04-14T21:24:00.000-07:00

Seasons spring and the blue blue sky,
There is something which still makes me cry..

Looking back at the present, past and the chequeredness at its best
Why do I ever try to forget
Am glad that I had ever met
Because you are too wonderful for me to forget..
I caant hear you as I used to
Bt still can listen to you
in the echo of me and my surroundings
But there is till something which holds me to you..
Because you are too wonderful for me to forget.
Am glad that I had ever met.

...

2008-03-18T04:54:00.000-07:00

ham toh hain parades men, des men nikalaa hogaa chaand
apni raat kii chhat par kitanaa tanahaa hogaa chaand

jin aankhon men kaajal ban kar tairatii kaalii raat ho
un aankhon men aansoo kaa yek kataraa hogaa chaand

raat ne aisaa pench lagaayaa, tootii haath se dorr ho
aangan vaale niim men jaakar atakaa hogaa chaand

chaand binaa har din yoon biitaa jaise yug biiten ho
mere binaa kis haal men hogaa, kaisaa hogaa chaand.

[Dr.RAHI MASOOM RAZA]

LOVE ACTUALLY :D :D

2008-03-17T04:23:00.000-07:00

Ohh what a lovely weather sun baked heat, soothing breeze,clear sky... seems like the stage is set to go out for lunch, or just to hang around wid ur loved one. But do you remember the last time u tried to discuss the weather with a pretty young girl or a smart looking guy just when her flimsy clothes were waving in the air or his hairstyle was trying to tell u the direction of the wind. Dont you think it was love in d air when all of a sudden u presented ur data of rainfall n snow just like bulls n bear rising 30 points high or 100 points low.Yes, it was rather love actually in the veil of weather actually.
Okk lets clarify it..Tell me d number of times you have been hitched by someone from opposite sex. When it was not love but its small counterpart Crush.Your answer would be like " I think I have lost the count" with that grinning smile. And now if I ask you the number of times you have conveyed your feelings..the answer would be a ziltch, sifar, zero, none( or may be once or twice in case of some dare devils but then we are talking about the common small town,college going, success aspiring hero always dreaming about his girlfriend in proof of pantheon looking Pythagoras theorem).
Just when you are having a good time and is just about to reach at the point to say the most relevant thing , you divert yourself to the most irrelevant thing and the topmost priority becomes the Daily Weather Forecast.
Now ever thought of whats the connection between ur small time love and the scorching heat. Except the fact that this heat gives you the pleasure of a lifetime when u r walking on that loo smitten deserted street ( ever wondered where was dis relief when u were asked to fetch something from the market or when u were coming back from the school). But still there is deep connection between ur feelings and the weather. Like I famously said once in d company of my alike thinking frnds-
"Crush is like a cigarette butt, it wobbles in d air just like a flair" :)
And it will keep wobbling in the air unless n untill you do what dis scorching heat or d drizzling rain wants you to do. So watch out from next time when ur girl or ur macho man comes into an upbeat mood looking at the sun rather the romance clad moon. Hope from the next time it wnt take you much time to get into the mind of the person trying to look the flowers of spring in your doe eyes. ;)

WEATHER ACTUALLY :D

2008-03-14T00:31:00.000-07:00

There I lay awake gazing at the sky,
Stars, clouds and the veil of its sighs.
There lies something up in d sky,
beyond the stars, in between the twinkles of the night.
Yes, this is called love entangled in folds of the clouds.
which will find solace in my arms, and your eyes.
Yes, this is called love drizzling across my sights,
beyond the guiles of this worthless life.

A little too far, a little too close.
A little little naive, a little too bold.
A little little sweet, a little little sour.
Hey can't we stay awake tonight!!
Hey can't we discuss love tonight!!

~ ILLUSION ~

2008-02-20T02:22:00.000-08:00

That night sitting along the shore, gazing the embellishments of the sky, a single drop of salty water created ripples into its numerous reflections. Before dying into the sea it had a life of its own. A life of journey. Journey crafted by good, bad, sweet n sour memories. But there was something my restlessness was searching in that well knit silken cloth of life. Some loosen threads. Some untouched blubbers. Some unheard tears. Tears which were shed in the darkness of days n nights. Sound of whose echo, which was lost in the quarrels of my surroundings. It always tried to caress the essence which will fade away at the horizons. And that horizons which never existed. And that horizons which always existed in my illusioned eyes...

Water of my grave.......

2008-02-04T23:09:00.000-08:00

Just when the candles start burning,
Just when the air is full of fragrance,
Just when the cries have mellowed down,
Just when it had knocked at my bedside,
Just write ur name in the water of my grave.
So that I can feel u in fall of my tears,
So that I can listen to u in the dance of the rain,
So that I can see u in the numbness of chilly nights.
So that my dead eyes are happy at the other side of life.

For I have just given up to the screams of life,
For I have become restless of my own delight,
For I was just in search of life,
When I have just fallen in the lap of his dark side...

Zappers U ROcK

2007-10-10T01:22:00.000-07:00

There were time n there were time
There were ppl n there were ppl
There were frnd n there were frns
am glad that I lived at that perfect time.

When there were frns to hold ur breath
n then same pals to kick in ur ass
when there were slaps on ur face
and there were giggles to blow them away
when there were tears at the dooms day
and there were smiles at the sunrise'way

when there were parties every friday night
then there were discussions at every saturday night
then there were questions without any answers
and there were answer without any reasons
Bcoz ther were frnds to make ur everyday bright
Am glad that i lived at such a perfect time

SEASONS OF LOVE..

2007-08-25T03:58:00.000-07:00

It was the summer with its flair.
But there was something hot in the air.
The cheeks were blushing red,
and the eyes were shining black.
Yes, there was something hot in the air.

It was the rain dancing with its zeal.
But there were drops trickling on my feet.
My smile was saying a thousand words.
His eyes promised a whole new world.
Yes, there was something mysterious in the air.

Then seasons changed and autumn came,
But eyes which met now turned away.
Leaves of love have now turned to pale.
Fragrance of flowers have now turned stale,
To be blown away, with autumn here.
Yes, the eyes which met are now turned away.

Winters have now come and life has moved on.
Love now lost, only a chilling cold remains,
Why can not it be forever?
Why does it have to be this way?
Red eyes have a story to say.
Yes, love is now lost, only a chilling cold remains.

Dont tell me....

2007-08-18T00:53:00.000-07:00

Dont tell me, u r not waiting for me
Dont tell me, u r not going call for me
Dont tell me, u r not missng me
Dont tell me, u r not there for me
Becuase there is some one still bitching for u.

I know that, there went something wrong
I know that, there is something fishy
I know that, there lies something behind closed doors
Because there is someone still cooking for u..

Cannt u forget all that happend
Cannt u comeback wid those dreamy sessions
Cannt u do all that I did for u
Cannt u bring back my lost song for u
Because there is someone still waiting for u....
Dont tell me.......

ROADS GONE BY

2007-08-03T04:19:00.000-07:00

( in joint venture wid my frnd Sid)

Smiles, laughter, joy and the play.
The image of the girl, with that smiling face.
Crushes and heartbreaks, every other day.
All come back to me,Sweet memories as they say.
Like the signboards on the highway.
Roads gone by, not meant to stay.

The childhood fights, the friends for life.
The first drink, those times we spent.
The first love, those promises, kept and unkept.
Like the signboards on the highway.
Roads gone by, not meant to stay.

The gesture of your eyes, the pain in my cries.
That midnight kiss, that first time hitch.
Yes, there was something that your laughter had to say.
Like the signboards on the highway.
Roads gone by, not meant to stay.

Those small small gifts, the after day rifts.
That walk in the rain, the talks we shared.
The way you said, the way I read.
Like the signboards on the highway.
Roads gone by, not meant to stay.

SO FAR.....

2007-07-30T10:12:00.001-07:00

My eyes can see the light,
My soul can feel it bright,
As there is light at the end of the sky.
I can feel its gold,
Because noe it is my goal.
The soul is dragging me
But the layman terrms are binding me.
I have to get myself free,
I have to reach there.
Because i will reach there ,
Not for me or myself,
Not for the ones around me..
But i know i have to reach ther..
There uis darkness in this world,
Light is unable to to come on earth.
Ihav eto sopread message of l8ight..
I have to tyell people their mught..
Because they are here to survive
They have to spread happiness of life.
But all this before i go..
Because so far i have to go..

Memories embraced...

2007-07-17T04:24:00.000-07:00

ek ijaazat de do bas, jab inko dafanaungii
main bhii vahin so jaauungii
main bhii vahin so jaauungii

Each passing second of our lives count for the memories of tomorrow. Some rae sweet, some are sour but our hearts are d place where they last.They may be the moments of joy but today they fill our eyes with tears.Memories are heavy baggage and burying them is the healthy thing to do. But will denying the existence of memories make them go away? Or is it better to embrace them?baras jaayegii to apne aap thham jayegii. Perhaps memories too are like that. They flood you for a while, but with time, they cease. Then again, memories get their well-deserved burial only at the end of one’s life. BUt they always ask you to get embraced in your hearts forever..

Missin u...

2007-07-17T04:10:00.000-07:00

Wherever you are,Whenever you are,
Whether you are with me,
Whether you are someone else' glee.
I would always remember you.
As a part of my dreams,
As a part of my endless songs stream.
As a part of my midnight bliss,
As a part of my every morning tryst.
As a part of my days,
As a part of my nights.
Bcoz there is something I always thought to say,
Bcoz there is something you always forgot to say,
Bcoz there is something called miss u.
Hey u, I miss u.
I do, really do, really miss u.
Whenever you are, wherever you are
I will always miss you.

U Forever.....

2007-07-17T04:05:00.000-07:00

This being my very first poem on this blog this is the one I love the most..

You are the power of my breathless sighs,
but this is the way I want to die.
You are the the world above my sky,
but thats the place I want my heaven to lay.
The silence counts for my enchanting words,
but still I want my whispers for you to hear.
You are the seconds of my endless hours,
but this is the time I always want to bear.
These are the things I dont want to forget,
but the only wish I had is to forget- You Forever.